Recovering from heartbreak

I am NOT a victim!

I had a good run. Four days of feeling fairly decent and functional. Not too sad and hopeful that I would beat this. Yesterday, it started to fall apart a little. And this morning, was rough. One of the things that happened yesterday was that I really tried to acknowledge my part in my disintegrating… Continue reading I am NOT a victim!

Recovering from heartbreak

Awkward Social Contact

Part of my recovery is based on making or learning to make new social contact. It will give me the tools and the confidence to grow my circle of friends. My hope is to learn what it takes to befriend a person. The mechanics of doing it. The act of pushing myself outside my comfort… Continue reading Awkward Social Contact

Recovering from heartbreak

Depressed to Fighting. Changing my mindset.

As I struggle with the dark pull of despondency, I realize that outside of my relationships, I have always struggled with loneliness. Loneliness scares me. I perpetuate my present situation to eternity, i.e, if I am alone now, I will forever be alone. This is my mindset. Believing the most negative outcome, and then yolked by… Continue reading Depressed to Fighting. Changing my mindset.


Exploring Catalunya, Spain – Besalu

Driving Plans Our driving plans were to drive from Barcelona to Besalu, and then to a vineyard outside of Manresa and then onto our overnight pitstop in Lleida. Besalu We picked this location based on an article which stated that it was one of the more picturesque locations in Spain, And it certainly did not… Continue reading Exploring Catalunya, Spain – Besalu

Recovering from heartbreak, travel


Within an hours drive from Barcelona is the must-visit location of Montserrat and the Monastery of Santa Maria . The mountain itself is striking from a distance. For one thing, its jagged, almost like a shark tooth look. Apparently most of it was a river bed eons ago, as evidenced by the presence of aquatic… Continue reading Montserrat

Recovering from heartbreak

A better man , every day.

Thats going to be my war cry. Each day, I want to close the day knowing I did something that makes me better, stronger, happier, or better looking. Get lean and get cut. Why? Because its difficult, and because I could never do it. Because , I want to feel good about my body. Because… Continue reading A better man , every day.

Recovering from heartbreak

Solitude – Coffee alone.

I was driving when the Starbucks caught my eye. I was still down with the flu, and I felt like sitting down somewhere that wasn't home. My son was asleep so I had some time to spare. I have never ordered a Frappuccino, so I asked the lady at the cashier to help me .… Continue reading Solitude – Coffee alone.