I have been nominated for The Blue Sky Tag by my fellow sojourner, and kindred spirit and friend, Purple Owl. She writes about her story, her journey, and her will and determination to conquer her challenges. She gives me strength and reminds me that we are never alone in our struggles. First time I have… Continue reading The Blue Sky Tag
A Church for Agnostics I am a deeply a-religious man. Have been that way for a long time. But in my present crisis, I am flirting with embracing faith. Not in the traditional sense, but I am conceding faith as a cornerstone of human existence is a good thing. In my search for solace, I… Continue reading A somewhat spiritual day
My wife and I are still living under the same roof. But we are planning to live in separate places in the coming months. Very soon I will need to transition from full time working dad to also include duties as a single parent. I am used to the following already: Making breakfast Bathing the… Continue reading Skills of a single father
Biking Lesson. My Saturday began with an hours drive to a hilly county park ideal for Mountain Biking. I was meeting a biking pro racer along with 5 other enthusiasts, to learn some basics of mountain biking. We learnt the skills relating to overcoming obstacles on the trail. Logs , roots, drops, stairs. It was a… Continue reading Fighting sorrow and depression by following through.
Its as if I awoke from a years long coma. My body misshapen, my hair a mess, my skin a sun-burnt disaster. I was in denial for years. I thought that my worth as a man was defined by by ability to take on the challenges of my financial situation. And that it was not… Continue reading My struggle with my body – Part 2.
One of the frustrating and complicated things about my impending divorce is the fact that I cannot get divorced anytime soon. I have now accepted that the divorce is going to happen. And I want to start moving on. I want to stop loving my wife, and hopefully just care for her as the mother of my… Continue reading Whats coming?
Socially things are edging forward. In this coming week, I have a dinner planned with a couple whom I met. I am going to meet them for happy hour and early dinner. I am looking forward to that. There are other people I have in mind who I think I want to hang out with.… Continue reading Am I moving forward?
We had a couple of difficult days. My resentment and anger and hurt came through. I turned our conversations into opportunities to remind my wife how much she has hurt me in her decision to move on. After both days, my wife reached out to me, to tell me that she felt terrible about the… Continue reading My Delicate and Precious Flower
Before I delve deep into self-compassion and love. I think I need to re-define self-respect? What is that I regret/loathe the most about myself? I let my body go. I pick up things and don't finish them. I engage in many addictive behaviors. I don't give enough of myself and to others. I dream of… Continue reading How can I respect myself more?