I wanted to take a moment to thank everyone. As some of you know, my marriage dissolved after 10 years in December 2016. And I have since found details of infidelity which were difficult to grasp. But thanks to the wonderful turn of events in my life, I have never been happier. I was a… Continue reading If you smile at the universe, the universe smiles back
So after my 10 year relationship with my wife fell away, I was in a tumultuous state of mind. And just in the last couple of month, things have started to be very different. I am now beginning to flirt with the possibility of another relationship. I am not going to disclose anything about the… Continue reading Changing landscape- new love?
I have been up to a lot lately. Here is a brief synopsis: Riding Music Working out Parenting Romance? Riding. I have been riding this weekend. Did three rides last week. Enjoying my new bike. The longest ride was 4.5 hours long, over 16 miles of terrain and 2500 feet of climbing. Video of my… Continue reading Whirlwind
As these things often go, more has come to light. It was revealed to me that my wife had been flirting with other men for better part of a year before I knew . I stayed at home , watched the little man, and encouraged her to have a life outside the marriage. And a… Continue reading Betrayal, lies and deceit.
I am beginning to notice that I have a few old patterns of thought that are re-surfacing. Why bother? When doing things that are not instantly gratifying or challenging, I keep wondering about why I bother. Here I should remind myself, that if I don't try , there is only one future for me. I… Continue reading Old habits
My son asked me while chomping on some grapes at breakfast. I said, "What do you mean?" What he said broke my heart. He said, "Is that why mom went to live in the new house?" I was speechless. Things like this are a reminder that the little guy is trying to process the changes… Continue reading Is this a bad house?
This sunday, I trudged my a 2200 ft hill over a 7 mile hike. I had 55lbs on my shoulders, and it was positively grueling. My shoulders took the brunt of it. My legs were mostly ok. But when I was at the summit. I felt this sense of calm. I looked at the vista,… Continue reading Crawling towards the light.
Its a precious thing, the love between a man and woman. Two people investing their dreams in one another. Some people are lucky to find such a bond that lasts a lifetime. But, for me and my wife, this was not to be. How I loved her. And how I despised her at the same… Continue reading A love consumed
Recovering from loss and grief is a process. And its not linear. Today I had a bad day. Injured, and overwhelmed by allergies, I took something that made me really drowsy. I also felt that when I was all alone, like right now, I am still sad and lonely, and all my endeavors don't really… Continue reading Not the best sunday