I have been up to a lot lately. Here is a brief synopsis: Riding Music Working out Parenting Romance? Riding. I have been riding this weekend. Did three rides last week. Enjoying my new bike. The longest ride was 4.5 hours long, over 16 miles of terrain and 2500 feet of climbing. Video of my… Continue reading Whirlwind
I am beginning to notice that I have a few old patterns of thought that are re-surfacing. Why bother? When doing things that are not instantly gratifying or challenging, I keep wondering about why I bother. Here I should remind myself, that if I don't try , there is only one future for me. I… Continue reading Old habits
My son asked me while chomping on some grapes at breakfast. I said, "What do you mean?" What he said broke my heart. He said, "Is that why mom went to live in the new house?" I was speechless. Things like this are a reminder that the little guy is trying to process the changes… Continue reading Is this a bad house?
This sunday, I trudged my a 2200 ft hill over a 7 mile hike. I had 55lbs on my shoulders, and it was positively grueling. My shoulders took the brunt of it. My legs were mostly ok. But when I was at the summit. I felt this sense of calm. I looked at the vista,… Continue reading Crawling towards the light.
Its a precious thing, the love between a man and woman. Two people investing their dreams in one another. Some people are lucky to find such a bond that lasts a lifetime. But, for me and my wife, this was not to be. How I loved her. And how I despised her at the same… Continue reading A love consumed
Recovering from loss and grief is a process. And its not linear. Today I had a bad day. Injured, and overwhelmed by allergies, I took something that made me really drowsy. I also felt that when I was all alone, like right now, I am still sad and lonely, and all my endeavors don't really… Continue reading Not the best sunday
I rode on my first full suspension bike yesterday. And it was pretty intense. It was lighter and faster and I shaved 30 mins of a 2 hour time it used to take me earlier. The downhill section felt a lot more comfortable on the full suspension. … Continue reading Scraped and bruised, I feel alive!
It was pitch black except for the modest illumination of the head lamps. There was litte to see other than an endless landscape of rocks. We were on the slopes of Mt. Shasta, probably at around 9000 ft. Underneath our boots, the rocks and boulders shifted precariously. I knew I was walking close to the… Continue reading Jumping out of perfectly good airplanes!!
Its not the first time I have been alone in the house. Bit this feels different. I dont know why. I met my wife and son yesterday, took them out to dinner, and we swapped some clothing and toys. Came home, went to the gym. I signed up for a free trial. I am hoping a… Continue reading Loneliness