Recovering from heartbreak

How can I respect myself more?

Before I delve deep into self-compassion and love. I think I need to re-define self-respect? What is that I regret/loathe the most about myself? I let my body go. I pick up things and don't finish them. I engage in many addictive behaviors. I don't give enough of myself and to others. I dream of… Continue reading How can I respect myself more?

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Skill Learnt: Mountain Biking

In the many years of my marriage, I was lazy. I was focused on my role as a provider. Was wound up real tight. Was miserable, and made my wife miserable too. I spend hours dreaming of things and not pursuing them. I dreamt of traveling, doing martial arts, getting super fit and lean. In… Continue reading Skill Learnt: Mountain Biking

Recovering from heartbreak

A better man , every day.

Thats going to be my war cry. Each day, I want to close the day knowing I did something that makes me better, stronger, happier, or better looking. Get lean and get cut. Why? Because its difficult, and because I could never do it. Because , I want to feel good about my body. Because… Continue reading A better man , every day.


My struggle with my body – Part 1.

This is me with a twinkle in my eyes. Struggling on a hike. I am a short guy. And its fair to say, that the extra weight is more than obvious. There was no dearth of excuses, why I couldn't be in better shape. The most common was that I was doing everything I could… Continue reading My struggle with my body – Part 1.

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Skill Learned: Orienteering.

I recently wrote about my desire to improve myself as a person ( The best version of me. Challenge issued! ). Here is a quick update. I recently did a Bay Area Orienteering Club course with some new friends on meetup. he sport of orienteering involves the use of a contour map and a compass to… Continue reading Skill Learned: Orienteering.

Recovering from heartbreak

The best version of me. Challenge issued!

Ten years of being a sole provider for my family have left me a little rusty. I don't feel like a proud full blooded man. I am lost when it comes to what it will take to feel like a better man. Whats the best version of me?  When I look at myself in the… Continue reading The best version of me. Challenge issued!


A dating profile. Path to rediscovering myself.

Divorce emasculates you. That being said, I was on  steady path to self-emasculation for the latter half of my marriage. I was driven by fire and passion when I was in my early twenties. I was fit, I was confident, and I was social. I was always complicated, but I had a strong desire to… Continue reading A dating profile. Path to rediscovering myself.