How can I respect myself more?

Before I delve deep into self-compassion and love. I think I need to re-define self-respect? What is that I regret/loathe the most about myself? I let my body go. I pick up things and don't finish them. I engage in many addictive behaviors. I don't give enough of myself and to others. I dream of…

A few steps back

I am feeling low.  Unable to work. Just a ghost floating through life. I am feeling tired, even though I slept for 8 hours. I am missing my wife. Miss being able to hold her. I want to talk to someone. I want to cry. I want to be held by my wife. I feel powerless.…

Depressed to Fighting. Changing my mindset.

As I struggle with the dark pull of despondency, I realize that outside of my relationships, I have always struggled with loneliness. Loneliness scares me. I perpetuate my present situation to eternity, i.e, if I am alone now, I will forever be alone. This is my mindset. Believing the most negative outcome, and then yolked by…

Fighting Depression

I woke up at 5 today. My little boy curled up next to me. I have had him sleep next to me, because its so therapeutic. I hold his tiny hands in mine as he snores lightly with his cold. I kiss him and tell him that he will always be loved. That both mama…

Solitude – Coffee alone.

I was driving when the Starbucks caught my eye. I was still down with the flu, and I felt like sitting down somewhere that wasn't home. My son was asleep so I had some time to spare. I have never ordered a Frappuccino, so I asked the lady at the cashier to help me .…