Something has derailed my positive mental attitude towards this recovery from heartbreak. I find myself feeling the same way I did about 2-3 weeks ago.
Feeling hopeless and heartbroken. I miss my wife. Wondering if there is any light at the end of the tunnel. I am going to try and focus on winning today. Not sure how. But I would like to do the day with some degree of positivity and hope.
I have stayed true to most of my objectives of self discovery and growth. And that process has been going somewhat fine. But I am not experiencing the detachment from pain I was hoping for.
I have to believe that this is a slow process. And that one way or another, I will look back at this time, and have a few stories to remember.
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The meaning of the “second chance” I seek has been changed a lot. I started writing this in the hope of saving my marriage. But as time showed me , that was futile and misguided. Now I seek a second chance to be father to my six year old boy. He will no longer live with me starting aug2018. I hope to use this blog to allow him an insight into his father. I would want him to read this when he is older.
My original synopsis
A man in crisis. I am a 30 -something man. My 10 year marriage shattering in front of my eyes. I have decided that writing helps. I am hoping to heal from whats coming, but before that I have to deal with it. Experience the pain, I know I will feel, when my wife walks out the door.
I have a little boy who I don't want to lose. And I am scared. Of restarting my life from scratch. I am hoping to find kindred spirits on the blog, who are going through or have gone through what I am experiencing.
But I have hope, and I have faith. To some degree, I hope to reconcile my marriage.
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A second chance? 
Don’t get discouraged! You’ll get through the bad days, and there are better days to come. You’re building the foundation for your future, and have done some pretty incredible things already! I agree with you that this will be a slow process, but also that you will have some amazing stories from this part of your journey.
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thanks addie. I have moments. And I need to embrace my lows. I write about them to give my nebulous feelings better shape. I feel a lot better today. My brother came to visit, and talking felt good. I was sharing my stories of my recent adventures. It made me feel good about my life. 🙂
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It’s good that you’re embracing the lows, but I’m glad you’re feeling better! 🙂
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