When in december , my wife decided that our marriage was done, I was sent into free fall. Its hard to fathom that so much time has gone by. My resolve was to not let this period of trauma go to waste. Instead use the motivation to push myself forward. This month will have a… Continue reading A month of little adventures
I have not written in a while. Some of my new habits have kept me busy. And I also drove about 700 miles or so to Los Angeles and back this weekend, with my son in tow. It was a fantastic time for the little man. He played with his cousin. And we went to… Continue reading A weekend spent well.
This sunday, I trudged my a 2200 ft hill over a 7 mile hike. I had 55lbs on my shoulders, and it was positively grueling. My shoulders took the brunt of it. My legs were mostly ok. But when I was at the summit. I felt this sense of calm. I looked at the vista,… Continue reading Crawling towards the light.
Today is Saturday. And last week was not too bad at work. But I was a homebody mostly. My therapist had advised that I try to get morebin touch with my feelings. So I tried. I felt sad often, but I did not feel the powerful pull on my heart. I suppose I refuse myself… Continue reading Progress piecemeal
Something has derailed my positive mental attitude towards this recovery from heartbreak. I find myself feeling the same way I did about 2-3 weeks ago. Feeling hopeless and heartbroken. I miss my wife. Wondering if there is any light at the end of the tunnel. I am going to try and focus on winning today.… Continue reading Out of steam
Its a precious thing, the love between a man and woman. Two people investing their dreams in one another. Some people are lucky to find such a bond that lasts a lifetime. But, for me and my wife, this was not to be. How I loved her. And how I despised her at the same… Continue reading A love consumed
Recovering from loss and grief is a process. And its not linear. Today I had a bad day. Injured, and overwhelmed by allergies, I took something that made me really drowsy. I also felt that when I was all alone, like right now, I am still sad and lonely, and all my endeavors don't really… Continue reading Not the best sunday
I rode on my first full suspension bike yesterday. And it was pretty intense. It was lighter and faster and I shaved 30 mins of a 2 hour time it used to take me earlier. The downhill section felt a lot more comfortable on the full suspension. … Continue reading Scraped and bruised, I feel alive!
I woke up at 530am, my little one snoring next to me. He is so energetic, that i take the opportunity to hold his face and shower him with kisses. I am going to have a somewhat big day. An audition, choosing a bike to buy, a karaoke meetup . I have to do… Continue reading A big day