I had a very good run. Did a whole bunch of things that I never would have done.
Fear was relegated to the back bench.
But thats not today. Its come crashing down.
Been thinking a lot about the ease with which my loving wife transformed into a uncaring person.
I feel used and disposed. It has come to light that my wife admits to working on moving away for two years. And in that time, I was actively working on making us grow closer. And she led me to believe that all was ok.
The many times I reached out and asked her if things were ok, and she assured me that things were ok for us. Just the normal ups and downs.
I feel so angry and worthless. Used and deceived by the person I loved the most.
I hope I don’t feel like this for too long, feeling like a victim never helped anyone.
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The meaning of the “second chance” I seek has been changed a lot. I started writing this in the hope of saving my marriage. But as time showed me , that was futile and misguided. Now I seek a second chance to be father to my six year old boy. He will no longer live with me starting aug2018. I hope to use this blog to allow him an insight into his father. I would want him to read this when he is older.
My original synopsis
A man in crisis. I am a 30 -something man. My 10 year marriage shattering in front of my eyes. I have decided that writing helps. I am hoping to heal from whats coming, but before that I have to deal with it. Experience the pain, I know I will feel, when my wife walks out the door.
I have a little boy who I don't want to lose. And I am scared. Of restarting my life from scratch. I am hoping to find kindred spirits on the blog, who are going through or have gone through what I am experiencing.
But I have hope, and I have faith. To some degree, I hope to reconcile my marriage.
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