I had two good days . No overwhelming negative thoughts. No anger. No feeling of helplessness. Even had a little hope.
Nothing different in the days. Just practicing the many many positive ttings I have learnt on the blog, from wise friends, TED talks, and forums.
I know the feelings will flow and ebb. But , Here are my thoughts now.
My life is a gift. I can experience joy in life if I can seek it. I cannot squander the wonderful gift of life. I am healthy and able. My boy is healthy and able. And he is still here next to me.
Tomorrow is not promised. So I need to make it count. I have to make a difference in the lives of others. Even if its just one person.
Life is beautiful, I just have to reach out and grab it.
I pray for the unviverse to give me more days like these.
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The meaning of the โsecond chanceโ I seek has been changed a lot. I started writing this in the hope of saving my marriage. But as time showed me , that was futile and misguided. Now I seek a second chance to be father to my six year old boy. He will no longer live with me starting aug2018. I hope to use this blog to allow him an insight into his father. I would want him to read this when he is older.
My original synopsis
A man in crisis. I am a 30 -something man. My 10 year marriage shattering in front of my eyes. I have decided that writing helps. I am hoping to heal from whats coming, but before that I have to deal with it. Experience the pain, I know I will feel, when my wife walks out the door.
I have a little boy who I don't want to lose. And I am scared. Of restarting my life from scratch. I am hoping to find kindred spirits on the blog, who are going through or have gone through what I am experiencing.
But I have hope, and I have faith. To some degree, I hope to reconcile my marriage.
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Thanks . How do you know my name btw?
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My alter-ego is that of a detective ๐ I don’t think you told Dave to keep it off the charts ๐ Does not matter. I know to keep the lips sealed.
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But where and how exactly did you see it. I feel stupid because i have an expectation of anonymity. Please help me out and i will try and see if i can find out
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I am sorry to distress you. It is on Dave’s fb page, ‘We’re the Travellers’. To be fair to Dave, I do not think he knew or he would not have possibly put it up. I also think you are safe because I am lame about noticing details.
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Thanks. This helps. I can ask him to remove it. I have too many details on my blog, that i have shared with no one . ๐
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The thing with being anonymous is that it is really tough to keep up with it. You have to make it airtight. I used to think I was anonymous when I was a journalist and write everything (even slightly bitch) about my daily life as a journalist. It bit me everywhere. After which of course I gave up the anon bit.
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I will one day put up my pictures. Hopefully there will be a six pack in it. OrI wud be on top of a mountain. But right now, I want to protect the identity of my family.
You are right. its difficult to pull off. But I knew I ran the risk when i contacted dave. Because contacting him clearly required my email.
Its a wordpress issue, they need a re-direct email server. If there is such a thing.
Yes, you are right about my ethnicity.
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The name said it. Bengalis and they love for O ๐ I am a non-O loving Bangali. Anyway, that is okay and now you can fix it. Even if people know, what the heck, it is a short life. You have gotta have your say. P.S.: Six packs are overrated.
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i will have to delete this thread. for obvious reasons… but thanks for bringing this to my attention.
PS: its ok, need all the little things to add up. I will need to start dating at some point. being attractive never hurt anyone ๐
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Yes of course to all of the above ๐
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