So apparently its true. The slightest feeling of being under the weather, makes me into a “man-baby“.
Been struggling with flu like symptoms for the last day and a half. And it made things pretty difficult for me in my emotional headspace. For one thing, I was not working out. So I felt more out of control.
I was watching the movie “Invincible” and crying. At least, tearing up and then quickly wiping the tears away. I was crying because its a story of a man who overcomes odds and follows his passion in his life.
The little voice in my head was consoling me. Telling me that if I am motivated, and positive, I will be happy once again.
Things at home have settled into a strange new normal. Wife and I co-exist without the bonds of love and affection. Separate bedrooms, but with limited interaction. Its not too painful at most times, but the reminder of what used to be hangs in the shadows.
But, this is my life, and I can’t fight it. I have to focus on how I find happiness in all of this.
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The meaning of the “second chance” I seek has been changed a lot. I started writing this in the hope of saving my marriage. But as time showed me , that was futile and misguided. Now I seek a second chance to be father to my six year old boy. He will no longer live with me starting aug2018. I hope to use this blog to allow him an insight into his father. I would want him to read this when he is older.
My original synopsis
A man in crisis. I am a 30 -something man. My 10 year marriage shattering in front of my eyes. I have decided that writing helps. I am hoping to heal from whats coming, but before that I have to deal with it. Experience the pain, I know I will feel, when my wife walks out the door.
I have a little boy who I don't want to lose. And I am scared. Of restarting my life from scratch. I am hoping to find kindred spirits on the blog, who are going through or have gone through what I am experiencing.
But I have hope, and I have faith. To some degree, I hope to reconcile my marriage.
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